It seems I won't be able to keep up my previous pace of post spam

Regarding the whole Mazul thing, yeah. I was being kind of lighthearted about it in the OP, but PoE has a very strong pull on me.

Example: about 4 weeks ago went to job interview. 3.5 weeks ago, second interview. 3 weeks ago, drug test for said job. Nothing was scheduled for next contact. Spend a Tuesday night playing PoE and foruming until maybe 5am. Wake up around 12:30p. Two missed calls from employer. Check email, and it says I'm no longer being considered for the job. They expected me to come it at 10a, called me at 8 and 8:30. Very short notice, but still... opportunity missed.

No drinking, no illegal drugs, very strong nicotine addiction. I still have VA health benefits and have an appointment scheduled re: smoking cessation.

Just got a Hearthstone beta key. Interesting timing, Blizzard.

$30 from ephetat. Thanks. Planning to be very transparent about this unless someonegives me a good reason not to.

"

ScrotieMcB wrote:

Regarding the whole Mazul thing, yeah. I was being kind of lighthearted about it in the OP, but PoE has a very strong pull on me.

Example: about 4 weeks ago went to job interview. 3.5 weeks ago, second interview. 3 weeks ago, drug test for said job. Nothing was scheduled for next contact. Spend a Tuesday night playing PoE and foruming until maybe 5am. Wake up around 12:30p. Two missed calls from employer. Check email, and it says I'm no longer being considered for the job. They expected me to come it at 10a, called me at 8 and 8:30. Very short notice, but still... opportunity missed.

No drinking, no illegal drugs, very strong nicotine addiction. I still have VA health benefits and have an appointment scheduled re: smoking cessation.

Just got a Hearthstone beta key. Interesting timing, Blizzard.

$30 from ephetat. Thanks. Planning to be very transparent about this unless someonegives me a good reason not to.

Yikes, so it is a gaming/forum addiction then like the other one suspected. It is not a new problem, and I suppose there are "Gamers anonymous" support groups nowadays, which should at the very least be free to contact, which is of importance given that you are evidently are tight on your budget currently. Accepting that one has a problem and asking for help is a very important step.


Also do not feel the need to reply to any posts. If it is anything like alcohol, it is easy to slip back to old destructive patterns once you take a sip. This is just a game/forum after all. Taking care of the family is the most important duty of any father. And yeah, it is specially hard if you've felt like you've let them down and the path to redemption seems so long.


At best, posting in forums or playing in games is just temporary satisfaction.

Games come and go, family is "forever", whether either party likes it or not.


I've dealt with issues regarding being pendantic about having a certain look and clothes (vanity related). In my case, Cognitive Behavioral Therapy worked very well. I can now go out without having my hair combed and not feeling like shit for it. I do not know if Cognitive Behavioral Therapy would work in your case, I am not an expert in psychology. Point is that I had and have an ongoing struggle (although far easier nowadays thanks to therapy) and that professional help did help in my case and I hope it does in yours too. I know that there are cases where people let their vanity really destroy their family relations and work, and I am glad I got help before it reached that point.

But, again, do not feel the need to reply, this is just a forum, this doesn't really matter.

Might i suggest thinking outside the box. Your apparent skills in information technology are very valuable. Its up to you to make connections. You should display that you can take control of situations, for power is rarely given. It must be taken.
Perhaps some entrepreneurialism.
Iv found that my own worst enemy is my own lack of desire. Perhaps desperation is exactly the fuel you need to overachieve.

^Very poetic

zachatta - $20
fullblackline - $20

I've been going to a psychologist for about two months now. Helped a lot. We believe overdoing it with games/forums is more symptom than root disease.

Thaelyn — $75

In terms of thinking outside the box... yes, definitely. I know this sounds weird but I'm actually MUCH less depressed now than two weeks ago. All these memories of my old life were holding me down. When the wife and kids left I didn't touch their rooms, I didn't rearrange the living room, I didn't move out of the 3 bedroom house... I didn't think about it but I was acting as caretaker of a past which had no future. Getting rid of all the stuff feels like being released from shackles I didn't even realize I was wearing.

For the past few months, I've trapped myself within this box, and it feels great to finally be free of it. I'll even leave a day early if someone from CL will buy this damn washer and drier.

"

ScrotieMcB wrote:

unknown account (but most likely Thaelyn) — $75

In terms of thinking outside the box... yes, definitely. I know this sounds weird but I'm actually MUCH less depressed now than two weeks ago. All these memories of my old life were holding me down. When the wife and kids left I didn't touch their rooms, I didn't rearrange the living room, I didn't move out of the 3 bedroom house... I didn't think about it but I was acting as caretaker of a past which had no future. Getting rid of all the stuff feels like being released from shackles I didn't even realize I was wearing.

For the past few months, I've trapped myself within this box, and it feels great to finally be free of it. I'll even leave a day early if someone from CL will buy this damn washer and drier.

I know what you mean there. You definitely don't want to live in the past forever.

Speaking of...
CliveHowlitzer - $150

You guys are seriously fucking awesome. I'm still looking for real-world employment because it's the most solid plan B, but I'm definitely going to be trying something entrepreneurial in the future. This community is awesome and I can't think of a better job than working on its behalf — even if it is only part-time.

What I need to do is find an unfilled niche — something which this community needs but no one is doing, and which I'd be good at. For example, too much competition for simple streaming.

You lost your wife, kids, house & are facing living on the streets because you were more interested in making forum posts & leveling pixels instead of taking care of your actual duties & now you are still here trying to figure out how you can continue to be a part of the game & not addressing your IRL issues.

[Removed by admin]

Video games