Sorry for all the rant I am so weak

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soneka101 wrote:

I listen to classic music when I am talking with someone ruder than me on the internet ;)

It feels like the person is not even talking to me when I do that.

I don't want to judge you and all, I also listen to classic music all the time. But everytime I hear someone who is listening to classical to remain calm while speaking to rude people.... I always think of that person as a serial killer... watched silence of the lamb way too many times.

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diablofdb wrote:

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soneka101 wrote:

I listen to classic music when I am talking with someone ruder than me on the internet ;)

It feels like the person is not even talking to me when I do that.

I don't want to judge you and all, I also listen to classic music all the time. But everytime I hear someone who is listening to classical to remain calm while speaking to rude people.... I always think of that person as a serial killer... watched silence of the lamb way too many times.

I don't have the will nor the balls to pull a Hannibal Lecter on anyone ;P

I get "kys" thrown at me almost daily (thanks online gaming). I accepted it as a part of internet culture or whatever you want to call it. It's also kind of easy to distance myself from that because it's only some strangers, who cares?

Btw if you feel a need to punish yourself try some serious weight lifting. Shit like deadlifts will exhaust you to do point where you feel like you're dying. And you'll get a nice body in the process lel. If you're afraid of becoming to buff you could try HIIT.

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Deadpeng wrote:

Mistaking that my purpose was to seek attention.

If you weren't seeking attention, you wouldn't ever have created this post in the first place (or your other post about taking estrogen) or the one about hitting 4000 miles on your car and so on.

You are an attention seeker by the very definition of it. If you didn't know, then now you do.

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Xavderion wrote:

Btw if you feel a need to punish yourself try some serious weight lifting. Shit like deadlifts will exhaust you to do point where you feel like you're dying. And you'll get a nice body in the process lel. If you're afraid of becoming to buff you could try HIIT.

This is the best advice I've seen this year. I would only add that it might be nice if you find someone interested to accompany you in your workout. Not someone that is only willing to chat with you while doing it or something like that, but someone that is also interested in getting some results. It might be only me, but I found it hard to get the motivation to exercise when I tried doing it alone. When I did in company of some friends it was way easier.

Essentially, yes, most post in the item showcase are meant to either gloat or seek attention.

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"The question is whether the topic is something that would be of relevance and interest to a particular group of people or not."

There's a big difference between something that of interest to a particular group and one that's meant for attention seeking while still remaining in the main subject of a discussion group.

An example of this would be a new car you own:

"have you seen the new Tesla car? it has [...]"

"have you seen my new Tesla car? it has [...]"


In the first example, you want to discuss the car, in the second, you want to gloat about it (and seek attention).


You might not realize that it's what you are doing but I can assure you that it is. If you go back and re-read your original post of this very topic, you'll notice that you aren't trying to discuss internet bullies but rather their impact on you.


I understand very well how awful bullying is and how it can affects one's life. But you need to stop trying to seek attention so much. It gets annoying and it also makes you emotionally dependent on the acceptance/rejection of people that don't know you. You'll be far better off if you stop caring about the perception of others towards you (especially from complete strangers) and that start by stopping the need to seek attention everywhere.

Often, someone that feel the need to seek attention to themselves are people that are very insecure and have a constant need to be reassured. It does seems to be your case, especially since you are doing a gender swap, which most likely make you feel very insecure about yourself.


Now, if you do need help, don't seek it on this forum, go consult a therapist. Self-mutilation is a very serious thing and I highly suggest to go talk to a specialist because it can get much worse. As for the person that's harassing you, I did not see what he said or did but you can (and should) ignore and report him. The world isn't always a nice place but fortunately, there's ways to defend yourself. Self-harm is never a solution.

I have a zero tolerance to bullies of any kind...I was very shy as a child, and a bookworm.....thus I was bullied at every school I attended. I outgrew the shy & the smallish bookworm that I used to be, and my confidence is such now that I am able to point out when someone is bullying. Not everyone is as fortunate as I however, and patience and tolerance of others needs to be shown by more people online.

It has been said, on this thread and others that Dead Peng is an attention whore....what a cruel label to stick someone with? She was proud of her new car....nothing wrong with that. Anyone that gets attention whoring out of that needs to revisit their definition of that label.